you seek answers to your unsolved questions. but none could ever respond to you, to the only one, which is torturing you each day of your life: who art thou.
all external is a facet that may break in a blink of your eyes.
all external is a void, filled up with creation or imagination.
the only non-utopia is in only inside yourself! where YOUR light is always sunning your soul. and let me tell you. that light nobody, not even yourself could ever dim.